longtime

well its definatly been fucking forever since i posted. not that it matters because noone reads my stuff, i have no followers, but thats the point cause i mean, this is only for me. still in iowa, still kinda miserable. but i love my bestfran and my boyfran forsre :) things with robby have been better then ever and im so unbelieably stoked about it. i was confused for awhle because someone showed me things and feelings of how relationships should be and how someone should be to me. but then i realized its not like relationships stay that way forever. theres always that long rough patch and if its really worth it, youll still be together. and look, we are. and i wouldnt have it any other way. as lame as it is, hes the reason im here. and i couldnt be happier with anyone else but him. (ps i suck at spelling everything ) my bestfran is my life and i dont know what i would do without her. also started hanging out with sammy again, and im stoked cause ive missed her a lot. me and her and sydne have been hanging together which is really rad. my birthday is coming up and im super stoked. theres so many things i want that i dont know what to ask for from certain people. and certain things i want the most are just so expensive i know i wont get it. i really want a mac latop but thats way to much money for a birthday. but i dont want it forf xmas cause im greedy and want more then one thing. whats christmas if you only open one gift right? me and sydne went back to my home a few months ago. it ruled. a lot of drama came out of it though when i got home. i want to go back so bad and see more people and go to the beach so bad. i just need one night on the beach for alone a little bit and id be more better then ever. might graduate this year, and im rying my best so i can. how rad would that be graduating a wholeee year before? i fuckin hope so.