fuck thanksgiving

its just a really fucking lame holiday, where people eat a bunch of poor turkeys, that were beaten and murderd just for you to have a great wonderful yummy day.
well fuck all of you! im eatting veggies! all day!
ha!

anyways. ive been thinking about a lot of stuff, and i hope you read this, whom im abou to read about.
my bestfriend was dicked over by another one of my friends. and shes supposed to move here. i know her intentions were not moving here for him, they were to be with her bestfriend, me!. but i know what a guy can do to someone, and you not want to be anywhere near that person. i really feel like she has changed her mind. and i really hope she dosent. shes my bestfriend and i love her so much. and we have so much fun and were so happy when shes here, i really hope nothing has changed. i hope she knows regardless, shed have a wonderful time living out here, just cause id be right there with her. im always there when she needs me, and same with me. dont let some buttbutt ruin your thoughts on what you did think was going to be a good idea.
cause its still going to be.
<3

GR!

so im in a really crappy mood right now and need to vent so here i go. so i was being a creep like all girls are, and i looked at robbys comments and saw his ex cmnt him saying "dont lie to yourself, you know she is" and any girl would be like whats that about? so i asked him about it. and he explained but like flipped out. like ITS NOT A BIG DEAL. and i never fucking said it was a big deal.
i love this kid so much, but we fight over the dumbest stuff, and i really hate it! =( but ohwell i guess.
i mean i guess he has a reason to be a little pissy but its not like i flipped out on him about it, i was just asking a question. he would have done the same if my ex boyfriend commented me saying something like that.

all i want right now is mike and nick. i miss them being my bestfriends. and them both always being there for me. i love it here, but i miss MY friends. i hate hanigng with the friends i do have here, and having them talk about old memories and inside jokes. it makes me feel so left out. i want my friends back and my inside jokes back. its so sucky.
i miss hanging in mikes basement with nick. and always fighting with the both of them over gay stuff haha. and how when me and my mom would always fight, mike was ALWAYS right there for me. =(

whateverrrrr.

and im sick of waiting for my bestfriend to get here. FUCK.

fuckmylife

tonight was the shittiest night ever. except in the beginning it ruled. robby picked me up from school today, and we just cuddled and watched these crazy animal attacks and cops haha. Then he left me. and it sucked. me and my mom got in this huge fight, over telling her, in milk there is always 10% puss. and then she started disrespecting my beliefs on why i dont eat meat. and that i have to stop caring about animals. like no? ill believe what i want to, and you believe in what you want. i dont ever get on anyones case unless they get on mine. i just wish she would respect my beliefs. but ohwell. as long as i do it, idc what anyone else does with there life. i know not eating meat can be unhealthy, but i wish people realized what they were doing to animals and realize its not healthy. AND my friend sammy said she could probably get me a job being a receptionist at her work. AND I KNOW WHAT YOUR THINKING. i never call people first and im really shy. but its a rad job, and i know i can do it. and all my mom kept saying was that i couldnt do it. and all this crap. like how is that supposed to help me out? idk. whatever. i believe in myself, and i guess thats all that matters. gabby comes in in 24 days. and i cant wait. i really need my bestfriend more then ever lately. im so happy when shes here. i cant wait till shes here for good, and hopefully ill be living with her. cause thats whats going to make me happy! but whatever well seeeeee. idk i really hope everything takes a turn for the better. and i hope everything comes out the way i want it too. i just want to be happy. the only things that have been making me happy is robby, gabby and sammy. and all my other friends here. but well see!

ramblerambleramble

sooo, last night me and gabby had the longest conversation about our apartment. let me tell you how stoked i am about it!

SOOOO STOKED. hahaha. were going to be so cute and happy in our little apartment. i just cant wait till she comes back so we can hate everyone together like we did when she was here. i honestly cant wait. also, i have no idea what i would do without her, she always listens to me  ramble about shit and cry about my issues. thats another thing, i finally talked to robby about stuff that has been bugging me and i think he finally understands and gets why ive been upset about certain things and whatnot. he can be the biggest butt sometimes, but i do love him more then anything. school RULES. i think im doing pretty damn well, which is crazy cause i usually suck in school. i also have this friend there, alicia, shes kinda just that friend you have at school. she has a accent, shes from indiana and its the cutest thing ive ever heard. shes adorable. 

buttt tommorow is voting day, and since i cant vote everyone needs to go vote! i say vote for obama, but vote for whoever you want, just do it! people say there vote dosent count but it does! you do have a say in whos gonnab e rulling us for the next 4 years so do it!

im going to stop rambling now. bye.