lately

Things have been going so good.
Me and robby had a huge talk a while ago, and i realize he really does love me. and we just need to take time to understand eachother, and talk things out, instead of just bottling everything up. and instead of him taking everything so wrong and getting so mad.

"Love; It makes us crazy. It makes reality invisible and it erases all the lines that we shouldn't cross. Because love isn't about fencing ourselves in; feeling safe, feeling sure about the future. It's about scaring the shit out of every nerve in our body, but pushing forward anyway. Because all the fighting and all the tears and all the uncertainty is worth it. And it's a hell of a lot better, than being 100% happy without someone to show us that there is a world of a difference between feeling 'happy' and feeling whole."

so true.

another thing ive realized is a lot of the kids here...are just big shittalkers, and pussies, cause they wont say anything to anyones faces just behind eachothers backs. so much for calling yourself "bestfriends". stop telling your "friends" it was just a joke, and man up and tell them how you feel.

so ive stopped hanging out with them.

peter, ryan, and mykel are all i need. hahaha. ive been hanging out with them lately, and they are just so much fun, and we go out and do stuff. we dont sit in and play video games or sit on the computer, and best of all, we dont sit and just ramble about people. they are awesome and i wish i would have started to hangout with them sooner.

i go home in 4 days with kaytee for 8 days. i cant wait. vinny is picking us up from the airport, and i cant wait to see him. and were staying with liz, and i cant wait to see her of course. so many people i cant wait to see. exspecially sarabeth and taylor. they will always be my friends through everything. i love them. <3

sb is having her baby soon, i wish i could be there when she has it but i know i wont :/ shes going to be such a good mom.

i cant wait to get out of here for a week.
im truly not really going to miss anyone, but robby really.

then when i get back, gabby will be here<3
which is awesome of course.

so glad everything is looking up.

<3