stupid

So I just got back to iowa a few days ago from visiting home. And I wish I didn't have to come back here. Im so much happier there. Like its not even because of friends, its because of the area. When I was walking in philly, I don't think I was ever happier then I was that moment.

But I had to come back. The only reason I come back, and the only reason im still here is because of robby. I love him so much, and im just as happy in iowa when im with him. But if it was a perfect world, I could go back, and he'd go with me. But I know how it is, you don't wanna leave your sucure ground, and your friends you have had for years.

So I know it won't happen. But itd be amazing if it did. Haha.

Plus I don't expect him to move, so he dosent lose me. Not that he dosent care for me, its just I know he wouldn't.

This summer though, he's coming with me. And I can't wait. I can't wait for him to finally meet my friends. It sucks being with someone for 7 months and them not knowing anyyyy of your friends besides like 3. But I mean like real friends I have. Amazing friends I have. Friends that are my everything. It sucks knowing his friends, but him not knowing mine.

Since were on the subject of him, thinks have been really looking up.last months have always been just shit, and arguing, and doubting the relationship. But finally either, things are hidden better, or hesreally trying. And I hope its him really trying. He's making me as happy as I was in the beginning of when we dated. And that was the best time ever. So hopefully things have changed, and it can always be like this.

School sucks. Im not sure if im going to pass. I have like not even a few days to finish 2 classes that I have so much work in. I really need to step it up. I need to bring work home, cause robby said he'd help me. And that's what I gotta do.

I gotta get that done, and I gotta get my drivers permit or whatever, and then ge my lisence, so I can get a job. Save money, go home, and start school after I graduate.

I need to start taking art classes, and sociology classes. I talked to my middle school counsler who im like bff with. And she said if I wanna be a art therapist, I need to get up on taking those classes.

So I need to do thatttt.

Anyways, bye.